Sometimes and Other times

 " Sometimes i wanted to dance and laugh with my friends until midnight, and sometimes 

i wanted to screen all calls and hide away with a tragic novel and a bag of candy. 

Sometimes i spend an hour trying to pretty myself up, and sometimes 

i could barely be bothered to comb the knots out of my hair before i left the house. 

Sometimes i wanted to know what it feel like to tell a boy all my secrets.  Other times, 

that seemed as impossible as waking up one morning to find myself fluent in a foreign language. 

Sometimes i feel better alone than i did with people. And sometimes 

that just felt lonely "

- Michelle Dalton, Sixteenth Summer

Well hello guys! how are you all? fine? oh its june anyway! :D i don't know why but time passes so darn fast! i just felt like yesterday was just mid december and tomorrow's going to be christmas eve (?) haha anyway, happy weekend loves <3 hope you guys have a great weekend with your lovely ones. 

Last weekend is the "last weekend" that i spend with my friends (jinan huawen), i will be moving to Jinan Inter, the main campus. in this 2 semester, i took chinese language as my foundation in here, i enjoy it quite much in the 1st semester, and well, in the 2nd semester (this semester) i'm quite lazy a bit and i regret it NOW :(

i supposed to make as many friends as possible but i wasted it by staying at my room watching some korean movies, well, i'm fed up. i'm mad at myself too. 

I'd really promised to myself to change in the next new school year. Since i'll be n a new environment, guess its time to change. CHANGE. and change to be better. i will . i promised. I WILL.

So, well, anyway anyway thank you for reading my bullshit paragraph (if you're reading it) it was just some trash on my mind that i wanna throw away (by writing) hahaha :p

ANYWAY ANYWAY (again). after the weekend, i had my holidays on weekdays. my mom and sister come and we went to hongkong.
but i guess i won't be uploading my hongkong pics in this post. next post la next post
anyway, i will be flying back to medan on monday morning. YAAAAYYY. a bit sad that i had finally leaving my dorm and friends but its okay laaaah. :)

Went to hello kitty cafe on saturday. but can't even eat there because there was too many people .. so we went to crystal jade restaurant

on our way to Foshan, where the hello kitty cafe is located

the front, cuteness overload <3

<3

the baker

too cute la :(

so cute one :(

<3<3<3

SHIT. mom called me to sleep. will continue this post on medan. bye guys night xoxo 
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 -> continued post

*some views*

finally entering crystal jade rest. xiaolongbao!

forget this noodle's name but it tasted so good

honey lemon chicken (?)

the complex

FINALLY. im done with this post. i'm on kl now, waiting for my next flight to medan. . . . .

so long one.... i watched green lantern and alice in the wonderland just now. and for the shake of any warrior (?) i wanna go back to my childhood.

when i could just freely dreamt, without any responsibility. when i could just changed my aim, and dreams everyday. when i could just danced with my niece, with the thought that i was the cinderella. hahahaha shit i hate getting older. i hateeee!

Things we think we deserve

Well, decision taken. i'm going to get into one of the universities in GuangZhou. i think i deserve staying here, rather than moving to HK. A bit sad but, we accept the things we think we deserve. TRUE ?

I will not talk about the reason here, i think it's too 'something' if i talked bout it here especially this is not a locked or secret blog. hahaha

So, i'd made some plan. I will go back to Medan on 12th of June *maybe* and then fly to Jakarta on 15th and then join some test to get into my univ there, spend sometime in Jakarta, especially with my friends there. It's been a year since i saw them, they'd complained and blablabla... so i think i should go there! hahaha.

Hm nothing much to say. I am sick right now, fever and sore throat. It's been 4 days and I went to hospital just now. I know that i'm a bit "too much". But don't you know there was still flu burung A(H5N1) here?-.- that's why i was scared, moreover it's been 4 days. Hahaha. But luckily the doctor said that it's just a normal fever. Well.. good then.

Anyway anyway, i'm gonna post some photos. It place is like "the goods dept" in Jakarta. But this is in GuangZhou. So, enjoy rolling! <3 Gnight loves!

Located at GrandView mall, this mall is like Sun Plaza(medan) for me, i went to this mall every week
but strangely, i never went to this place. Maybe i was too focused with h&m and others! hahaha

Cute vases! My dad must really love it! hahaha

Loving this pocket seriously, there are some pocket that's made from newpaper too! <3

A bit interested in Lomo effects and Camera, going to save money and bought them soooooon! *hoho*

cute rightt :3

for the shake of olds

Spotted GongCha at Fashion Mall!

I’m out on my own, making my way. 

Trying to be someone that I can be proud of one day.

-Jack Savoretti

I still cannot articulate everything I do deserve, 

but I can say with confidence that I do not deserve to be unhappy. 

For now, let me just say I know I mean something to myself.

-Julie Wesenberg

Thoughts

heyo...
I'm currently so damn confuse right now. I'm choosing my universities and haven't even learn and had my ielts test. FML.
I have 2 choices, between HongKong or GuangZhou, i know that all of you would suggest HK.
I would like to choose HK too, but most of the people says that it's hard to get in there. I haven't actually graduated from highschool too (actually). So, i don't even know wtf am i going to learn but all i know is that i'm going to take business/management as my major. But seriously i had no idea of how could i get in there. I don't have any basic at all since i only had one year of high school. My english are bad too, it's even worst since i get into mandarin language college in here (Guangzhou). And well, the online registration for the school has closed too.
About Guangzhou, i liked Guangzhou, very much. But i feel like i should get a break from here, for 1-2 years. I AM TOO BORED right here right now -.- that's why i'm planning for taking a break.
I'd called my parents to decide which school should i get into (because i'm too confuse to choose).
But yet, they still asked me to choose, they don't want me to regret for yes-ing their choice. Well, that's true.
I am afraid of disappointing them. Seriously, as you know the living cost in hk is higher than guangzhou, i'm scared that after i get out of the uni and spend all the moneys, all i can do is only nothing.
I know i should try but.....what if i failed? All i can blame is only me and myself.
that's why that's why that's why i'm so freaking fed up right now, i can't even sleep for more than 6 hours anym.
Well, i guess i need to go to hk to see and survey. Hoping that God will help me find a way. #amen


I'd lying in bed all day, eating comfort food, sleep, rescheduling plans, finding escape through movies and doing nothing at all. But nothing changes. And my laziness and getting worst. Seriously. 
Gonna post some activities pict that i did these days. (So this post won't be that boring)

playing guitar

eating ice cream

snack-ing

that's all.



Oh yes, thank you for hearing my chatter right now, i know it's pointless to you guys. hahaha
well, goodnight and have a nice dream too (i just realize that i haven't said this words for quite a while)

SSUR

hello guys! as you know this kind of hiphop hat/cap is kinda booming since last year till now, and one of my friend had just opened their online shop that's specially selling this kind of hats.

so, if you're interested but you don't know where can you bought those hat then you can just find them on instagram @theplateau :)

Macau vacation

Hello guys. I absolutely almost forgot about this blog! I've been addicted to runningman episodes lately. I used to wonder what is the special about runningman. I never watched it until one day, i asked my roomate (shelly) if there's some korean movies on her laptop. She actually had a lots but she left her old laptop at home(indo). So the only movies left are RunningMan. It was not movie actually. Hahaha.

Okay so let's go straight. I went to Macau last last last last weekend with 2 of my friends, they're Shelly and Redo, both of them are from Malang.
Our school are having a kind of holiday. Actually China is having a-i-don't-know-the-name holiday. Hahaha.
Luckily, when we went to Macau. The weather are a bit friendly, because it has been raining in this 3week :( and it's getting cold today. Aaaaa where are you summer? :(